Philzone.org Discussion Board: Archive 2004: Hep C Archive: BEST WISHES FOR ROSE!!

Rose,

I'm hoping your going to be already started on your first shot tomorrow before I awaken on Mon Dec. 13th.I of course will be sleeping in ....but I think you mentioned you might be getting your first shot about 9:30 am.
Here's to hoping you have a most successful tx, and that it goes as well as can be expected....and that you kill dead that ugly old dragon!! I really feel good about your chances, and there is certainly something special about starting these up on Dec. 13th.
Believe me.....Im have extra special feelings an intuitions on this one. You will "KICK ASS" and slay the dragon...i know it!!

Just remember that the no#13 is your lucky day....and let's go from there!! Were all here for you, and wishing the very best for you. Stay close to the computer, and let us know how your feeling all the time. This place is great for sharing and venting all the bullshit and crappy feelings!! Take care.......
Peace Always,
Martino

Go get'em Rose.......

Rose,

Hey hon, I really wish you good luck on starting
on the tx later this morning !
I know that you will be strong and ready to start
fighting this Old Dragon, and just remember that
you have a Pfamily here who is behind you 100%
and all of us are here for you!!!
If you need to talk, just e-mail me and I will give you my phone no# and you can call me collect,
and we will talk !!! Take care of yourself and
be strong !!! I am going to be around here, so
please feel free to talk if you need too !!!!

Happy Holidays to All,

The Grinch

Bruce

Rose, don't be scared. Tx is not as bad as TX.

Bruce, If you'd like to share some info I'd like to send you some REAL VA info.

Bear tracks,
Thank for your offer to here me, so what info
do you need from me ? I am a very open person, and
i am not afraid or ashame to post any info here
because you all are like Pfamily to me !
I found out for example, that because of my
Lifestyle and because I have Hep-c, my own family
still see me as a three-time loser,and would
rather see me die, so I no longer am a decrease
to the family name !!!! If that don't bet all !!
All but my brother a year younger than me, does
understand, and still stand behind me !!!
And I do have a Rainbow family,who cares,but does
not understand or want to discuss the subject of
Hep-c !!! So I really need this Pfamily very much,
so I don't feel like I am fighting this battle
all alone !!! Even thought most of the time I do
feel alone and feel so helpless !!!!
Bruce

We're all pulling for you Rose(and everyone here on tx). Best wishes to an easy start on treatments. Before you know it, this will all be a distant memory.

Go Rose!!!
You are kickin' Dragon butt, starting today!
I feel good about it, knowing you spent time taking care of the b.s. details and getting ready
for today.
It's a short ride from here to hearing that 1st "undetectable".
Please post soon and let us know how it went.

HAPPINESS IS A WARM GUN
Author
Lennon Lyrics

She's not a girl who misses much,
Do do do do do do do Oh yeah
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane
The man in the crowd with the multicolored mirrors on his hob-nail boots
Lying with his eyes while his hands are busy working over-time
A soap impression of his wife which he ate and donated to the National Trust

I need a fix 'cause I'm going down
Down to the bits I left up town
I need a fix 'cause I'm going down

Mother Superior jump the gun - Mother Superior jump the gun
Mother Superior jump the gun - Mother Superior jump the gun
Mother Superior jump the gun - Mother Superior jump the gun

Happiness is a warm gun
Happiness is a warm gun
When I hold you in my arms
And I feel my finger on your trigger
I know no-one can do me no harm because:
Happiness is a warm gun
Happiness is a warm gun
Happiness is a warm, yes it is, gun!

You've sure got my best wishes, Rose. You will be okay. And you've got all of us, and that's a big bunch, on your side. And your own special angel up in Heaven watching out for you...... Love, Fran

Happiness is.... taking us back to a day that felt safe in it's own way and real, helping us deal with today! Peace, to you all

Good Morning! it's nice to wake up to see all your blessings and well wishes, I don't have alot of time to post. I got to be there at 9:00am for teaching of these injections, they screwed up and didn't give me the ready pens. It's cold and dark here, we are getting ready for a storm, it's going to be a good day though. I will post later

Should be gettin ready about now, Rose. Don't worry. The injection is the easy part. Let us know how it goes.
PEACE, Mark

>they screwed up and didn't give me the ready pens.<

naw...more like they're just another money grubbin' pharmy company lining their pockets being sneaky getting rid of the discontinued production vials of pegs instead of the newly manufactured redipens.

Go, Rose, Go!!

Kill that damn dragon, and remember to drink a ton of water, go pee, and then drink a ton of water, go pee, and then drink a ton of water, go pee, ad infinitum.

You can and will beat this beast. Fight hard.

"I purpose to fight it out on this line, if it takes all summer"
--U.S. Grant

Well I'm back! I was 5 min. late but I made it, I must have got behind every Grandpa that should not be allowed to drive! It's snowing here and people forget how. My shot went phine! next monday I'll give it at night. It didn't sting or burn like I thought. I'm calling the pharmacy though and tell them they screwed up, they didn't have this in stock they had to order it, so some one screwed up, my daughter and baby Taylor flew back home yesterday, today her mother has her appointment for her first set of baby shot's , isn't that odd we both are getting poked today, I should be hearing from her by noon. I got a good feeling about this tx too, it's my lucky day 13, I'm still wating to see if I will start feeling wierd? I still got to go out to the smoke shop before I get snowed in and everyone get's snowed out! we are supose to get 4 to 6 inches today, I want to get my jeep running and go play (altenator is out), my only 4x4, I think this was good timing, doc wants me to pamper myself and the weather is so bad not alot to do anyway, well all is phine , thanks for all of you being here, I'm starting to settle down a bit i was a little nervous with that dorky nurse that said she couldn't find my liver function test, she did not want to do it then made her go talk to the doc, he gave me the green lite! TIME TO KILL THIS DRAGON! I would have came back home and figured out the peg kit and did it anyway. I have no patients for stupid people, well I'll post a little later, I think I'm ok

Rose...... yahoo you're on the way!!!!!!!!
I'll be thinking of you and sending my prayers and thougts and best wishes for the death of your dragon!!
Wish I could be there and toast a glass of water with ya! Here's to SVR**
Love Ceilidh

goofed up the pic and don't seem to be able tofix it sorry.........

>I think I'm ok<

Got a feeling you'll be just phine. A now official welcome into the Pin Cushion Brigade. Not to scare you but most side effects don't kick in untill about 4 hrs. after admin. the shot. My first Pegasys shot was a piece of cake. Hope yours is as well.

Excuse my brain fog...what part of the country are you living? Smoke shops, 4x4's, and snow...my kindaphun too.

Thank you thank you for the nice welcome to the pin cushion brigade! well if sides start in 4 hrs I better get moving now, I go to the smoke shop on the michigan and Indiana stateline for smokes (cheaper), I'm looking forward to the snow I haven't got the jeep out last snow we got , heater works good it's a 94 wrangler, I live real close to lake michigan, if you live out east (like i thought) then your used to these storms too, I always say it's not snowing it's LAKE AFFECT! it was so bad earlier you couldn't see, it looks like it calmed down some now. The wind blew all night, I've been awake scence 4am, this is winter though! ok time to go play in traffic

get well best wishes sent your way rose

Good luck Rose - you'll do fine.

ROSE! YOU ARE NOW AN ACTIVE DUTY DRAGON WARRIOR...CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!

Rose,
I am happy to hear that all went well with your
first shot ! And you are in my thoughts !!!
So you are getting some of our Montana snow heading your way ! I am happy to hear that someone
else is getting snow other than us !!! ha ha ha
Just had to find out that all is going well, and
that you are ok !!!
Take care of yourself !!
Bruce

Rose Good Luck on your Battle against the Dragon...I will be following you very soon!
We will Overcome one day...very soon!!!!!!!!!!!
My prayers are with all.
Tommorrow I will think of you. I mus meet with the evil portal of Government..SSAdministration. They are harder to battle but Im going to kick their butt too!

Rose.....

I am now more convinced than ever that you will be successfull!!
After talking to you.....I can sense your inner strength and fortitude....both key ingrediants to smashing the dragon's head into tiny little pieces!! You shall prevail.

......and seriously, it was very nice speaking with you. Keep on those beaurocrats ass's and don't let up. Keep being a total pain in their ass until you get what is rightfully yours.....and then take a little extra for good measure (LOL)!!
Peace,
Martino

Wishing you more days that are diamonds than rocks.This is DOABLE and we will watch your back. Peace

Well after talking with Martin, and a walk to the mail box I feel drained, the flu syptoms and hot like fever. I took my temp it's 99.6 no mail box money yet and i got to go put that horse up yet and throw hay, I guess it's all down hill now PEACE Rose

I got my lovely riba to take yet tonight, I think I'll take them at 10pm and 10am- those pills are the strong stuff, I just hope I don't go physco...lol, I'll know in the am. We are getting ready to be blasted with snow. I have everything I need except to call the plow guy. My sides went away around 4 I still feel them though, motrin helped and moving around and the water, now I'm having cherry garcia icecream, I'll celabrate for me and Martin's b-day! Baby got her shot's she cried her mom cried, so far so good here

I remember my very first shot 1999(shivers).

Damn...I thought I was gonna die. The 3 shots a week old interferon crapola. Hot and cold shivers so awful I ended up sitting on top of the propane palor heater untill I was drenched in sweat; ass nicely browned. Minute I got off the chills would start all over again. The rest of the night I spent puking. Sounds as if everything is honky dorey with you so far.
Shot #37 going down for me tonight...they are talking snow in NH also. Maybe I get to have phun in my badass plow truck too. Yep, I went psycho.

Sending warm thoughts your way Rose!

Oops, image didn't post.
Will try again, it was just to make you smile....

Good Lord that sounds like the hard stuff, yep in 99 they didn't have the more mild stuff like i'm on, they didn't know as much we all know.
Those chills started about 4 1/2 hrs later you were right, I still feel like I'm hungover or something, I wonder what the hell that Riba will do, oh shit...LOL! DRAGON WILL BE GOING CRAZY AND WILL DIE!!!!!!!! I bet I just might get alittle ,but I hope not! I get my jeep running this weekend and then at least I can go play or something,I'm bored not working so I got to do something Phun!

Congradulations on shot #37 only 11 more to go but whose counting!

Rose Don't tell your self scary stories.Just flow This is DOABLE Peace Rob

>Congradulations on shot #37 only 11 more to go but whose counting!<

I'm doing the 18 month double dosage gerrilla warfare routine with the pegs...360 pgs/1200 ml. riba. Just passing the DOABLE halfway mark here. It's all downhill now.

ROTFLMFAO..... skidmark super heros.

Quit counting is what I meant, but yes you do have to keep track, but sometimes you need to forget makes it go quicker! sorry!
Don't forget to go play in the snow, PEACE Rose

Out through the night and the whispering breezes
To the place where they keep the imaginary diseases....



DON'T EAT THAT YELLOW SNOW

Dreamed I was an Eskimo
Frozen wind began to blow
Under my boots and around my toes
The frost that bit the ground below
It was a hundred degrees below zero...

And my mama cried
And my mama cried
Nanook, a-no-no
Nanook, a-no-no
Don't be a naughty Eskimo
Save your money, don't go to the show

Well I turned around and I said "Oh, oh" Oh
Well I turned around and I said "Oh, oh" Oh
Well I turned around and I said "Ho, Ho"
And the northern lights commenced to glow
And she said, with a tear in her eye
"Watch out where the huskies go, and don't you eat that yellow snow"
"Watch out where the huskies go, and don't you eat that yellow snow"

Nanook Rubs It
*(Well, right about that time people
A fur-trapper (who was strictly from commercial)
Had the unmitigated audacity to jump up from behind my igloo (peekaboo) )
And he started into whippin' on my favorite baby seal
With a lead-filled snowshoe)*

I said, with a
Lead-
Filled
With a lead filled snowshoe
He said, "Peekaboo"
I said, with a
Lead-
Filled
With a lead filled snowshoe
He said, "Peekaboo"
He went right upside the head of my favorite baby seal
he went "whap" with a lead-filled snowshoe, and
he hit him on the nose and hit him on the fin, and he
that got me just about as evil as an eskimo boy can be. So I bent down
and I reached down, and I scooped down and I gathered up a generous
mitten-ful of the deadly *YELLOW SNOW*

The deadly yellow snow, from right there where the huskies go!

Whereupon I proceeded to take that mittenful of the deadly yellow snow
crystals and rub it all into his beady little eyes with a vigorous
circular motion hitherto unknown to the people of this area, but destined
to take the place of the mudshark in your mythology
here it goes,the circular motion, now Rub It!

*(Here Fido)*

And then
In a fit of anger
I pounced

And I pounced again

Great Googly Moogly!

I jumped up and down on the chest of the him

I injured
The fur trapper

Well he was very upset, as you can understand
And rightly so, because the
Deadly yellow snow crystals had
Deprived him of his
Sight

And he stood up, and he looked around, and he said

"I can't see"
"I can't see"
"Oh, woe is me"
"I can't see"

"Well.....you know
I can't see
Nothin'"

"He took a dog-doo snow cone and stuffed it in my right eye
He took a dog-doo snow cone and stuffed it in my other eye
And the husky wee-wee
I mean the doggie wee-wee
Has blinded me
And I can't see
Temporarily"

Well, the fur-trapper stood there, with his arms outstretched across the
frozen white wasteland, trying to figure out what he was going to do about
his deflicted eyes. And it was at that precise moment that he remembered
and ancient Eskimo legend, wherein it is written (on whatever it is that
they write it on up there) that if anything bad ever happens to your eyes
as the result of some sort of conflict with anyone named
Nanook,
the only way you can get it fixed up is to go

Trudging across the tundra
Mile after mile
Trudging across the tundra

Right down to the parish of St. Alphonzo

more phunny stuff...

don't you eat that yellow snow cartoon:

http://www.asparagusproductions.com/index.htm#yellowsnow

Tuesday... how are you doing this morning, Rose? I remember getting the first shot at the doctor's office, and driving home and having a wierd chemical smell or feeling or something throughout all my cells, but nothing painful. This really isn't so bad, I thought. Late that night I had a very different thought, that the doctors had made some kind of a bad mistake and I'd be dead by morning. After two years of treatment due to relapsing, almost exactly three years since I first got diagnosed, I finally passed the blood test with an SVR. What a long strange trip, indeed. There will be bad days, Rose, hopefully not too many, but even on those bad days, you are heading in the direction of an awesomely good goal. Peace

Rose hope your feeling good I'm on my other PC so I can send pix.So strap on your seat belt.You got a seat on the magic bus Peace Rob

Rosie,

One word of advice:
Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water, Water,and then more Water!!!

Trust me.

Jim

Good Morning, I had a rough day this first shot and the way it hit me was , having it so early in the day, this is going to be a srange trip indeed, I took the riba last night and fell asleep, I felt like I was going to have dry heaves and before this very spacey brain fog but i sleep good I took motrin at 8am I woke up with a headache, 5 more min's time to take the riba now at 10am, I hope I don't get sick but at least I'm home and don't have to go out, the water helps for sure! I'am so glad to have you all thank you! I'll be here so I'll keep you all posted, Peace Rose

"those pills are the strong stuff, I just hope I don't go physco...lol"

Rose, it's not a matter of whether or not you'll "go psycho" but when! and to what extreme and under which circumstances...LOL! Now, fortunately I have never been affected by this Tx and remain perfectly normal. Seriously though, if you struggle too badly with "things" get help and keep your medical pros totally informed of what's happening. God Bless

Speaking of which, I just went off on the optometrist.
All of us have tons of medical appointments to keep, and I am heartily sick of being punctual in order to wait a half-hour minimum everyplace I go.
How do you get that far off schedule, when the office has only been open for 10 minutes??
I think I am going to develop the habit of beimg 40 minutes late for every appointment from now on.. If you want to milk the insurance company, you'll STILL have to see me, right?

Rose,

Glad your hanging tough, and the worst part is over with by now I'm sure.
I know for me......it was the first shot that was the worse, and then it got better. Anyway, I'm sure your going to do fine.

I do have a question however for my good friend Mr. Bear ( Jeff)!!!
.....Now Jeff, what exactly do you mean by this statement? >

Now, fortunately I have never been affected by this Tx and remain perfectly normal.

What is normal by the way? I have yet to figure that out, so I figured maybe you have some inside info. on the subject. However, even if you do, I'm not so sure that I'm going to buy into the concept that you my friend are a candidate for normalcy??? (LOL)!! ( only joking my friend...actually your a riot, and I do so enjoy your post!) But who wants to be normal, anyway? Bah-Humbug on that!! I like being a bit off the wall, don't you? hahahaha

Hi Martin, yep I'm hangin tough. I took the riba at 10am and feel so tired, I did get my shower and eat, dads aide didn't show up so I have to care for him today. He will probably outlive me the way I feel today. That's good to know that some the first shot is the worse, now maybe it will be smooth sailing from here!

And MR.X- myself had never heard that people don't get the sides with this crap we have to put in us, What is your posion? (I forgot?) and what's your secret? If I get too bad I'm sure I will get the doc's attention, thanks

Rose, My poison is Roche Pegasys on Wednesday afternoons & 1200 mg Riba daily. My secret is: ..

Martin, ok,ok...I gotta agree with Shelly, have known I was "crazy" for a long time. Guess I first noticed as a small child. After seeing the story of Helen Keller had trouble closing my eyes and sleeping for several weeks cause was afraid of waking up blind.

Afternoons and Coffeespoons
by Crash Test Dummies

What is it that makes me just a little bit queasy?
There's a breeze that makes my breathing not so easy
I've had my lungs checked out with x-rays
I've smelled the hospital hallways
Someday I'll have a disappearing hairline
Someday I'll wear pyjamas in the daytime
Times when the day is like a play by Sartre
When it seems a bookburning's in perfect order...
I gave the doctor my description
I've tried to stick to my prescriptions
Someday I'll have a disappearing hairline
Someday I'll wear pyjamas in the daytime
Afternoons will be measured out
Measured out, measured with
Coffeespoons and T.S. Eliot
Maybe if I could do a play-by-playback
I could change the test results that I will get back
I've watched the summer evenings pass by
I've heard the rattle in my bronchi

Rose ..hope you are feeling a little better each day...peace...mack

Rose
You are in my thoughts daily with good vibes for easy sides!

Thanks Mack, I thought of you too going back on tx I hope and pray yours goes well

Ceilidh Thanks for the goob vibes, so far today I only took motrin 2x some headache and a few chills tonight but went away, This is DOEABLE!

Rose is on the bus! Hang in there, like you said it is doable. When you clear it will be all worthwhile.

Rose, my first was the worst also. Always get worst headaches 24 hrs after injection. I'm halfway through, gave blood today for 6 month viral load. It does get better, but not a whole lot. Somedays and weeks are better than others. Water is an absolute must. Motrin usually works for me for the headaches, but I get 800 mg. And sometimes it takes two. I'm going to ask my doc about that next week. Remember, first is the worst, it's all downhill from here.
Welcome to the "Brigade". You'll be fine.
PEACE, Mark
PS I think X was speaking in jest.

Good Morning Mark, yes i think the worst this week is over, I slept good and didn't have the headache this am, I just took my riba and have to get use to this before I can drive, yesterday it wore off about 2 or 3 but then by 6:30 I had a fever so I took more motrin, it's to be expected I guess. I have to venture out today and pay bills, my disibility was aproved, I should get my checks rolling in now, I had a 14 day wait, so I'll see what goes on from here, but it's time to kill the dragon, I can't live like that. Mr.X had good answer! PEACE Rose

Hey Rose the week is 1/2 over and I'm thinking you're awesome. Your one tough lady and my hat is off to you. You've inspired and impressed me. You appeared to take it one step at a time and did it without getting overwhelmed by the bigger picture. Considering you don't have the luxury of only considering yourself and caring for yourself. Hope your Dad's help gets through the snow to give you a hand!!!
You know that dragon isn't going down without a fight but I don't think he has any idea who he's tangling with.

Happy killin' trails to you!
Love Ceildih

Let's try that one more time with enthusiasm this time !

Thanks Ceilidh, yep you cannot get overwhelmed and aproach it like that, I did take care of business first due to all my responsibility's, Dad's aide did show today, and i'm getting ready to get out of here before I go nut's (cabin fever!) I know you said your getting ready for tx, I'll be here for ya! You have to be strong! Got to run, PEACE Rose

If all else fails pray then have some ice cream.We're all pulling for ya Peace

So Rose.......you've made it through 5 days so far, how goes it???

Are you feeling anybetter?

Hope things have calmed down for you.

Wishing you a **magical** holiday season.

Peace and love


Ceilidh

Hi Ceilidh, yes and no, I was ok wed and thurs but today while x-mas shopping I was real spacey and then the nausea set in, so...I left early. I probably forgot what the hell I was doing in there anyway..lol, but this is why they have the medical mj it is supose to help so a couple hrs rest and I feel ok, still nauseaated but I'll just rest for the night. I think i'm over doing, actually I've been on the go alot, I was sick only 2 days then up doing alot and carrying water to the animals outside, but I think every day is different just like they say every shot is? as this tx goes I know I'll have alot of down days and maybe not? but I know I could not concentrate enough to work like this, I better hush for now I'm spacey as hell, I'm going to go hit the couch, thanks for asking. PEACE Rose

Hey Rose here's a little song to put a smile on your face this holiday season and a little holiday cheer for the rest of us.........Wishing everyone a happy holiday season!!!

Dragon Nuts Roasting

Dragon nuts roasting on an open fire
Hep Tx burning through your veins
And at the end you’ll be SVR
A just reward for all your pains.

I might act like a raging fool pumped up with caffeine
Show all the classic signs of Riba Rage
Then the very next minute my eyes start to close Leaving me to feel every year of my age.

You know that SVR is on its way
Which means that we can get back to “normal” days
And every mother's child is gonna’ pray
To make sure that darn virus stays away.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase To Heppers from one to ninety-two Although it's been said many times, many ways Merry Christmas and SVR to you.

Merry Christmas everyone
Love Ceilidh

Rose you WILL make it through.

Ceilidh, that's cute!

Rose..the couch is your friend! Get lots of rest...when you are tired and save the activity for the days you have the energy...and have some ice cream!

Good Morning! That's Good Celildh! that's too funny...lol Merry Christmas to you too! SVR is what I'm praying for for x-mas this year. It would be nice to have a digital camera so i can post some pic's, I'll have to be nice to santa! just took the riba about 40 min's ago real spacey but it's DOEABLE, I got up and showered and ate now I feel I could go back to sleep, I dread giving my own shot on mon night and not looking forward to being sick on tues but got to get on with shit bummer so close to x-mas but hopefully on the 5th when I go back they will see I'm responding or whatever they do look for? well I better run,PEACE Rose

Rose,
Keep on keepin' on

Hang in Rose! You CAN do it!

Rose
Just thought about how your doing.Keep up the good work Rob

Rose
If you are like almost all of us, you've already seen the worst!
Shot 2 is about half of shot 1. and by shot 7 or 8 you're going..."Huh? When's it kick in?"
Not to say it's easy, but the shots are the least of it for you pretty soon.

rose good luck wuth the treatments! i haven't been here in a while! always nice to get back. hope that you and everyone else is doing well! take care!

Hi Walt ,I hope your right, the first hit me hard but learned real quick to deal with it, I drank lot's of WATER!
Rob I'm learning how to cope, feeling ok the riba makes me tired until about 2 or 3, not used to being down like that. I have to becareful because that's what will make me depressed when I'm unable to get up and do my chores, but I'm paceing myself and learning how to cope, I'll post more tonight I'm doing the 2nd shot at 7:00pm, I got myself on schedule and makeing sure I'm showered and dressed before 10am riba dose, then down I go. hope it get's better. I better get moving. PEACE Rose

Rose
I was about to say...screw the chores....when I remembered that your chores include taking care of the animals (which I have no idea what kind....I'm thinking Horses?)

So I figure it must be a case of re-prioritizing. Instead of that feeling of satisfaction after accomplishing a million things in a day, you now have to give yourself a lot more credit for things you probably never let yourself count before.
Being up and showered and dressed before 10 everyday COUNTS!

Before I start running off I really only meant to say hi and tell you I'm thinking of you this Monday and now it'll be two less shots.

At the risk of sounding like a high school cheer leader.........."You Can Do It, YaY Rose!"

I wish I had it in me to act like a cheerleader again...lol.. yep, I only have one horse now I did have 2 but this one I raised ever scence she was 4 mo old, so she's phamily, I don't do the stalls I have someone elce do that but I just have to put her in for the night and grain her and throw hay, not too bad, I have the 3 dogs good till wed. so now I'll hunker in for this other shot tonight, yes! 2 less shot's now!

I'm hunkering in tonight with ya, Rose. Shot #38 I think.....dogs and kittys all snuggled in house here too.

Very windy and extremely brutal cold tonight in NH. So windy it blew the chimney cap of the roof. Another chore for tomorrows daylight hours.
I for one get pretty bent out of shape when I can't complete responsibilities. Today was a fine example of that. After about an hour of messing around trying without success to start my plow truck with a weak battery I ended up just cussing and being pissed off altogether. Better judgement took over when I was about to start beating it senseless with my 32oz. framing hammer. Oh well...maybe tomorrow.

Shot # 2 done, it's -4 below here wind chill, we were lucky not to get much snow so far, how do you know if you do the shot right? I was tense, but didn't feel like when the nurse did it? I hope I didn't go into the muscle. it lumped for awhile and iI rubbed it, I can feel some burning now, it's probably ok? but feel it in the whole leg earlier? I always have a project to do here too. I finally got the barn painted in oct! I hope you have a charger for your plow truck, it will be there tomarrow good thing you noticed it. good luck with the chimney, becreful if your burning wood, I'm gonna eat and take this riba and hit the couch. I'll post more later

Not much to worry about screwing up the shot. Lump is from air bubble possibly? I do my shot in the stomach area, thighs got red blotches and were to tender. Doc says meds seem to work better in stomach tissue. Dr. Martino prefers the buttocks cheeks(lol).

No wood burning here. Fake log fire. Propane gas, thermostatically controlled. Been burning the same 4 logs for three years. The romance without the labor.

Bundle up...keep warm. Stay heathy.

Rose,
Hey sis, happy to hear that you are doing well,&
not having to much problems with the tx treatment!
I should be starting the tx treatment within this
next month, but I am not as couragous as you are
and real worried about dealing with the side-effects ! But I still feel its more important to
fight and slay this Old Dragon, than to worry all
about the maybe's !!!!
Thank you for being around !!
Take Care and Be Good
And Toke it, if you've got !!!

The Old Hippy/Deadhead,

Bruce

Bruce,
Although tx is no piece of cake it is quite tolerable in the side effects dept. compared to the old meds. I would'nt stress to much about starting up treatments it's really mild compared to the old shit. To ease your mind...some pholks experience NO sides whatsoever. May you be one of those lucky peeps.

To add:
The only meds I take to combat side effects are some Tylenol PM's and MMJ. Outdoor NH skunky buds are this weeks Rx. YUMMY

Hey thanks Bro, I needed to hear that !!!
I guess its better to fight and slay this Old
Dragon, than to let it get greater strength; and
to defeat US !!!
WE SHALL ALL SURVIVE !!!!!

Toke ~ Toke !!!

PEACE !!!!

lOVE YA ALL!!!

Bruce

Bruce,
a good site for hep c vets info:

http://atoghepatitis.com/

Thank you for the info, will check it out !!!!

Bruce

more hep c VA info:

http://www.hepatitis.va.gov/

SKULLPIPES,
Thank you so much for all the info, and I'm sure
that I will be needing this info. if I am going
to deal with the V.A !!
May be having the V.A supplying my Tx, but will
not Know until my Appointment!! I have also asked
the V.A. for a prescription for Medical Marijuana, so I will be able to help fight not
only my Manic Depression / Paranoid schizophenia
Disability, but also to help relieve the symptoms
of the Hepatititis !! I should be hearing back,
I will let you know what they had to say !!!

wish me luck !!!

Bruce

Good Morning! no sides this morning, sleept real good , took tylenol before bed had a little bit of a headache, lump is gone and leg feels ok. Bruce the hardest for me with this tx is the final"just doing it" that screwed with me so bad, and not working. but when I lost my Grandma I decided to be strong like her(wich I'am anyway) she raised me. I need to live, I'am Grandma now, my kids need me and know they can always come home. I don't want some dirty dragon screwing with me and it was, I know now that when it's out of my blood I will be healthier, and be able to ride again this summer and have energy. or Ice my 6 yr old mare will be pissed at me!...lol (no joke) she's like a human, she thinks she's a dog! I'am all she has, I had another mare and had to put her down, she foundered, sad day. so now I can look forward to loading up this spring and summer and go camping and trails, my therapy, like Dave said, "there is a silverlining to this hep c" always remember, when your on these med's that it's the med's, and cope, think first before you overreact, seek suport, you'll find it here. Have a good day now, time to get moving. PEACE Rose

At the risk of going back in the daze when I drummed at high school pep rallys with my hair forcebly tucked in my band hat. GO ROSE GO

My prayer drum beats constanly. PRAYER IS POWERFUL Peace Rob

Rose,
I am so happy to hear that you are doing so well,
and coping with the stress of everyday life !!
I am so proud of you and all the strength you
have, and yes your Grandma gave you a very good
characteristic !! Thank you for sharing about
your mare, I also love animals !!!
I should be more like you with all the strength
to deal with the Old Dragon as well as you do !!
Someone like me, with the 30 years of On and some off, all the hard drugs, deserves getting a
disease like this; and it hurts to hear when
someone gets it accidently !! I'm will be 53 years old in Febuary, and most of the time I feel
like I 90 yr. old !!! And having a disability of
Manic Depression with suicidal thoughts & tendecies / Paranoid schizohenia, really makes the Hep-C harder to deal with !! I guess for me,
I am fighting this Dragon for someone else, I
have been writting to Robin since Nov.15th,2003,
and now we are deeply in Love, and she is still
serving time in Missouri !! We haven't met yet,
but have been communicating by letter and phone
for this last year !! but when she said that she
wants to spend a life-time with me, and convinced
me that she truly did Love this Old Hippy/Deadhead, just for me !!! It was at that
point when I started to fight this old dragon and
no longer let it win , as I was letting IT do to
me before then !!! Robin gave me strength to
really start fighting and defeating this old,nasty Dragon, so I can fulfill her dreams of
a living a long life with me !! In my last letter
to her, I ask her to marry me !!!
sorry, my point is That she gave me the strength
to not just give-up, and she gave me most was
purpose and hope !!! And without those, I had
nothing !!!! The only things I have to help me
to get by, is listening to the Grateful Dead/JGB,
and my medication - Medical Marijuana !!!!
Thank you for being here in the zone; to help
others with your strength and hope !!!
It sounds like right now, my plans are to start
the Tx treatment at the end of Dec. / Jan.!!!
Because this old dragon is kickin' my ass, and it
is time to fight back before its too late !!!
I am concerned about the side-effects of the tx,
in my condition already; and hope that the MMJ,
will help me to survive this !!! But yes, its
time to try to slay this dragon !!!!!
Thank you for being here !!!

Bruce

Rose,

How you doing ?
Thought I would check to see how you are holding
up and to let you know that I do care and am
very proud of You !!!

Take care and have a very merry Christmas and
New Year's !!!!


Bruce

Good Morning, Bruce I'm glad to hear that your taking charge of your life. I'm doing good, the riba rage has kicked in, I'm real sensitive and noticed I'm runnin my mouth more. I have to remember that I'm on these drugs, and to becareful what I say and it's to my best interest to keep calm and don't stress, people around me need to be aware all the time now and it's also hard, the mj will help with the rage. I know it's going to get worse. but I'll clear this virus and it will all be worth it. If your by yourself it will be easier to deal with, if your in a relationship it will be hard. I already have had to let shit blow over. and feel I'm watching my old man like a hawk to see how he's dealing with it, I think it freaks him out!...(LOL)he hasn't been around lately due to his job. he recently took the leased truck back after 4 yrs (truck driver)and thinks he's going to be help to me on this tx!! It could be a disaster!I think I'll talk him into releaseing and get him out of my hair (I'll even help him pick the color of the new truck!)to save our realationship. but I may need him here?? you never know how it will go, but I did enough checking on this and I think I'll be phine. It will be over before I know it! You have a Merry Christmas! I'll be thinking of you starting tx, I hope it clears for you and you'll be able to get on with your life and be happy and healthy. (it's the only way)this dragon will eventually kill us. I know, I seen 2 people from my hometown dead now because of no tx. it causes cancer and all kinds of shit, do what the doc's say, so far I think your on the right track! PEACE Rose

Rose,

My 2 cents worth.. Send Kent back out on the road.... cross country long haul if possible. And tell him he is welcome to give me a call anytime...

Dan

Will do! I think it's best, and that truck driving shit is in his blood. he thinks he's going to help me (LOL!!), wich it's nice of him, but I'am a big girl!. on my way now to pick him up for the holidays so got to run. I'am still thinking of what color! (LOL) I won't miss $800.00 a wk payment though! PEACE Rose

Hi Rose.... by all means tell him to call anytime he feels the urge. I'm off to work now... the best part of my day. Although those hugs last night with my sweetheart sure were nice. Something to look forward to at the end of my day.

Dan

Rose, I consider myself lucky to live alone during tx. I can't imagine having to deal with someone here all the time. This shit can be rough, and the less you have to worry about, the easier it will be. Tx has put major kinks in many other relationships, some resulting in splitups. I know he wants to be there for you, but better to have him for the rest of your' soon to be healthy again life. Send him on long road trips.
PEACE, Mark

Rose,
You take care of yourself, and continue to do
what you are doing ! I know now that I should
get on the tx, and fight this Dragon before it
out of control and things get worst ! And I am
going to let my doctor decide, but I am going
to make it clear that the treatment is a cure,
and I am tired of Goin'Down the Road Feeling Bad,
and life harder to bear ! I still waiting for the
Veterans Administration to decide if they will
supply the Tx,But they sent me more forms to fill
out and send back ! So I guess that means something at least ! I do want to start the Tx
after the Holidays, since this is the hardest time
of the year for me !! I have my own battles during
Christmas to deal, and I don't know; I guess it
would be extra hard right now !!!
As I said before, I am proud of you for your great
determination and sttrength to battles it head on,
I hope I have the same strength when I start !!!
I guess what scares me the most is the Riba Rage,
I have alot of friends who come over to check up
on me, and I have a nasty temper anyway, so I hope
I don't blow it !!!
Merry Christmas to you and everyone else on the
Zone, and have a Happy New Years !!!!
All my love and support goes out to you Rose !!!
Keep up the good work !!!!

Bruce

Hi Everyone,
I am thinking about do the treatment as soon as
possible, because If I start it after Robin gets
out I don't really want her to have to be around
me in that state of mind !!! But I will have the
MMJ if I need it !!!
Today I had a certain treat, friends came over
with Ganja cookies for me !!! I only ate 2 cookies
and I am feeling it !! My dog Ringo ever got a
cookie, and now has been chomping on a big bone
he got !!!! Aren't I terrible !!!!
Rose, if you need to talk to someone, please feel
free to call me - (406) 222-2152
I am home most of the time, especially today, it
is really really cold, around 8 degrees, with a
35 mph wind, and we have snow, and I refuse to go
out in this kinda weather !!! Time to do as the
Grizzly Bears up here do and that is Hibernate !!
Ha- Ha !!!!
Anyway everyone have a Happy Holiday, and be
good !!!!!!!!!!!!

Bruce

Merry Christmas to all of you !!!!
May this year be filled with Hope, Happiness and
Joy !!!!
To my good pfriend Rose, I wish you well during
this Holiday season, and may all your every
Dreams come True !!!
May all you saddness,become Happiness and Joy !!!

Bruce

Rose,
Thank you for the email !!!!!
Have a very Merry Christmas, and Have fun during
this Holiday Season !!!
Bruce